It's the Love that i can't forget.

"I expect you to be much more matured than the rest of your peeps here, just because you are older than them." Those were the last few words that I received from Ma'am Fye at work. Apparently my last time talking to her before she got to go to some other outlet. And those words i holding it near to my heart. Knowing that there are part of me that need to improve on. Like being less tempermental and showing a good and leading example to the rest of the peeps.

But what if being cool headed got you into amidst of unhappy people. And to be blame for the outburst of the attacker. Controlling my self destructing devil in me with a smile as I faced with my attacker. Got pushed on the chest any yet not laying a single finger on his body. I was cool calm and smiling. Managed to control the tempermental side of me.

As young thinking adult, i know that by giving him the punch on his face would just end up in a fist fight that eventually end up in bandages in the hospital. That's if when i got attacked by "blood brothers". So I just give that smirk and had the evil laugh. Is playing games with the mind the cause of these commotion or is it because of the sharp and sarcastic tongue that cloud cut the treshold of a person into half. Mind games are the best way to pissed people off.

But then again, when mind games leads into determine the physical strength, is it mind games fault that one temper rise 100 times more? or is it because of poor anger management that makes one to shout and fight or does it because he felt a sense of fear and uncertainties that results the mind to fight, thats when the adrenaline starts to rush. Is it mind games fault?

Then again, being cool headed, why is it that I am to blame when I got attacked? is it worth to be cool headed and being mature and wise to settle a conflict with talks and peace treaty when the one got attacked is to be blame?

There are still a long way to learn and reach a point of maturity. Before Nirvana.