I am so nullified.

Things do get wrong, Things do get out of control. Things do get out of what we had planned.

So what, just move on.

Its not in my control. Not my line of fire.

Aim. Focus. Fire.

Bang bang bang. MArksman.

I donno where to start. This week had been a rollercoster ride both emotionally and physically.

On the 22May 08 (thurs) my grandmother past away. I wasn't really shock caused she was bed ridden and had been suffering from stroke and other chronic disease. But what took me aback was when my sister told me this. " According to the doctor, Nenek past away around 5 to 6 in the morning. That was when You (me) was watching soccer, and I was getting ready to school." And I realise that we are too busy with our daily life and chasing our satisfaction that we forgot to think of our love ones and our responsibility as humans. Which is to love our family and to fulfil our debts with the Almighty.

She past away on the same day she was born. 22May.

The problem statement is: Hafiz had been feeling lost lately. Help him to get back on track and not to wonder off course.

I'm kinda lost about what had happen lately. Mixed emotions and people contributing for this to happen. Alot of things happen lately. School, work, personal expectation and acheivement. Too many things happen and too little time to reflect. So I'm kinda lost.

I actually took time to search for my soul when travelling or free time. I wondered what went wrong? Is it me? What are the things I can improve on? Been soul-searching so deep that I found out one thing.

My body is like a living zombie. There is no soul in me. My soul is like dead. Empty and silence. I realise one thing. I have been missing out on the creater of the soul. Allah SWT. He is the one that created me, and forgotten him is like forgetting someone you owe dearly.

Conclusion. I have to get back to my spiritual side of me.

I can't believe my grandparents are shifting to sembawang. Good bye potong Pasir. It was nice knowing you. There was the memories that will stay with me till my time stops ticking. I learn how to ride a bicycle, learn to play badminton, learn to homesick and the best of all is learn to live a simple live. No video games no computer. Its the pure outdoor or i'll be sleeping indoor. Haha. I remember saw a big turtle swimming at the river.

However many things start to change. The playground is not as humungous as the previous one. No see-saw, no tall slide, no swings, no climbing structure. Haiz. The old times was way better. No wonder the latest breed of human are so kentalz. Haha. No offence. Was just a joke.

haha. Guess I'm not stepping there anymore. Goodbye.

I'm so shagged with the life I'm living now. School, work,school, work. I'm having little sleeping time now. Just to make ends meet.

A whole of last week was a disaster. Ain't havng enough time to have a moment to reflect on my doings. What I know is that I made mum walk all the way down to the petrol kiosk in the wee hours just to pay the bill, Which i do not have enough. I was so disappointed in myself. Especially when it was mothers' day a few days later.

I hope you peeps took that day to appreciate what your mum had been doing for you. I was working from morning to night. Seeing families having a quality time with their mum makes me want to drop and cry at that moment.

I'm sorry if I'm not there for you. I'm sorry if I made you cry, bleed, or sweat. I'm sorry if i hurt your heart. I'm sorry I can't be your perfect boy. But mum. I love you. *tears roll down my face*

Time. The most perisable and important thing God had ever created. Once it gone, its gone.

I'm getting sick and tired of having no time for myself. I'm sick of waking up and went to school, seeing my family is sleeping and when I reach home from work, I see them sleeping.

My life is a bore now. Getting so stress up and cold in class and then got all hot and frustration in the kitchen at work.

Finally i got out some of my feelings to a close friend of mine. I Missed him. haha. Thnkx bro.

I need to review of my actions. I need to start the ball rolling again. Because, I got no more time left to waste. Life got to move on, want it or not. So better move and let the flow helps to reach the final destination. Destination Happiness.

Strumming my guitar....yawwnnn

Been busy with school and work. Tough to balance. I hate this. Ha, but then if I dont do this, I won't have any pocket money.

Had the first Silat training. Was running all over the school. My fitness wasn't bad afterall. Today was like run here and there. But its like only running. No upper body exercise. My hands also like bored. haha

Because of training I didn't catch Iron man with Seoul Garden peeps. Missed the show which they say was fantastic. Hah. But its okay. I save $6. Anyway rock eyed chick wasn't there. So yeah.

Tmrw having the first Cognitive Understanding Test. I'm so okay2 abt it. Not really my fav subject. The topic are mostly abt Knowing and thinking. Too much analysis cause paralysis to my brain. Haha.

My left side of my jaw is aching. The wisdom tooth is starting to create trouble now. Why not earlier sey. Haiz.

My left eye keep on twitching. Scientific proven suggested I'm having lack of sleep, stress or too much caffine. I think not enough sleep. Grr..Mum said I'll meet someone from very far. Hmm..Superstitious. This one I havent really believe yet. Some superstitious are like true and I believe in it. haha.

What else did I missed? Oh ya. I miss you peeps. Some of you. Really. Why you don't believe me?? Serious la. I missed you!!!

For a moment,
my heart stops beating
my mind went blank
time stops ticking.

Labour day, was out doing some labour. Got so irritated by the orders. Grr, it was irritating when they order fish and chips and wafer fries. fish and chips have the wafer fries, why want more?? It was so busy that I have no time to drink water.

But its ok. Rocker chick was working. Haha. It was like the 2nd time working together. She looks so rock today. It was an awe. Haha. I was stuck in a moment. It was the first time i got that kinda feeling. wooooo.

Tmrw school and work. I haven't start studying for my upcoming test. Hahahayooooo

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