It's the Love that i can't forget.

Work sux. Why??

Because I'm a soloist doing a suppose 2 man assignment.
I punch out at 7pm or later daily and they paid me until 6.
It is so far away from home.
Travelling everyday and have to sleep beside a smelly guy who did not took his shower earlier it is really making me puke. Ok tu bedek. But travelling more than one hour is a pain in the arse.
People there are backstabbers. Got stabbed in the back a lot of times.

Feel like taking MC or urgent leave tomorrow, I mean later. Hahahaha. See how.

Ain't got a thing to blog about. Yesterday was the ups and the lows. Ain't gonna elaborate on that. Got to be steady.

Anyway.

I want to share one of my favourite song on my playlist. This one call Dan by Sheila on 7. Non malay readers, it's about the writer felt guilty for his actions and let them blame, scold and forget him if that what makes the other party feel better. What a gentleman!

Dan...
Bila esok datang kembali
Seperti sedia kala dimana kau bisa bercanda
Dan...
Perlahan kaupun, lupakan aku
Mimpi burukmu
Dimana t'lah kutancapkan duri tajam
Kaupun menangis, menangis sedih
Maafkan aku...

Dan...
Bukan maksudku, bukan inginku
Melukaimu sadarkah kau di sini 'kupun terluka
Melupakanmu, menepikanmu
Maafkan aku

Lupakanlah saja diriku
Bila itu bisa membuatmu kembali bersinar
Dan berpijar seperti dulu kala

Caci maki saja diriku
Bila itu bisa membuatmu kembali bersinar
Dan berpijar seperti dulu kala

ok..the title sounds a bit of Yp minahs. Ain't my type. Like, annoying. But it fun to be bimbotic sometimes? haha.

Well today is like Fun time at the Staring Room day. Fun isn't it to sit and stare at the walls until you feel satisfied? Memberut like 4 times today. I just can't stop it. My stomach like tumbling. Feeling wierd. What did I ate yesterday and today until I got all this?. Lets see.

Yesterday,

Breakfast: 4 slice of toast bread and Teh

Lunch; rice, kuah lemak, sambal hotdog

Dinner: Mutton Chop and Soy milk

Supper: Filet O Fish Meal and Ice Lemon Tea (ILT)

Today,

Breakfast: 4 slice of toast bread and Teh ka tai

Lunch: Rice, Ayam masak merah and sambal goreng

Dinner: Half Spring chicken with fries and ILT

Ok so which meal went wrong?? Hmm. Can I assign a CSI team to investigate?Hah

Ok today Futsal was cancel due to no available slot for the 7 to 9 at East coast and Kallang Cage. And the price for Fico sports hub, the one at Juronng West, is way to high. So we postponed it to next friday, 1st Feb 2008 and the last Friday, 29 Feb 2008. If you are reading this guess what?

YOU ARE INVITED!!

So please come and show your skill. I'm not very good. Serious. No joke.

Olla!!

I ditch my job and went teh tarik just now. Don't do what I do unless you got a back up plan. haha.

Anyway...

Teh tarik-ing was nothing but business talk. And I learn one new thing. Actually been hearing it but now then I understand. That is I need to learn to be STUPID. I'm not kidding dude. To be successful in the business I must just follow what I was told to do and stop thinking too much. Thinking too much about the hows will just kill your future. So I must learn to be stupid. Got to swallow my pride and thicken my skin. Numb my feelings and smile when being laugh at. Qoute from Dr Azmi, " Its ok..one day I'll be Diamond, Diamond, Diamond. And now I'm a Diamond!"

OkOk...for those that cannot relate its okay.

Oh ya..some updates. I receive a letter from republic Poly that my deferment will end in March and my school semester start on the 7th of April. My goodness. Why 7 April?? I want to go MUS on the 4,5 and 6th april and the next day I go school. Mane bole macam gini. Another challenge. I told my mum and she don't let me go MUS. She reminded me that the business is PART TIME. Alahai. I still need to find another job lagi. Apelagi, I got to grow the business quickly!!

Anyway, I can't wait for poly to start. I'm going back to school bebeh!! After 3 long years of not studying. Whoopeee...

I need help. Anyone know any nice happy song that can swing the mood up?? preferably rock yeah. My playlist now is mostly Indon/malay rock. And the best part is that it is all about relationship and heartbreak and stuff that will tear my wounds apart again. Great isn't it?, especially if you are a saddist.

I'm trying to be happy here!!

Hey all..been quite sometime since I last update..err..right?? I had been investing time with super-duper, extralicious and wonderful bunch of people who are very positive and excited about their extraordinary future that they are heading too. So my brain is slowly reprogramming to be like them. I thought I was crazy but they are even crazier and fun to be with. They are weird people too but it is for the good cause.

I donno what I should blog about today. hmm. on the 17 Jan 2008, I showed the plan for the first time to my friend's mum and had to do it in Bahasa Melayu. Alhamdullilah, it went smoothly. Demo was also great. Got involve first time sey..The learning and training at DD's place really pays off. One down nineteen more to go.. I saw an improvement in myself and really proud of it.

I LOVE ME!! BIG HUG!!

There was challenges after challenges but the goal had been acheive. GOAL!!! Hafiz 1, Challenges 0. Even when challenges had a few good chances and shots on goal, Hafiz's goal keeping skills and defenders did well to denied the ball from entering to the back of the net. A wonderful team performance by Hafiz's players and their desire to win the game paid off as counter attacks were swiftly took place and did some difficulties for challenge's line of defend. After perserverence and good sportsmanship, Hafiz finally break the dead lock.Ok aku da start merepek. Like soccer commentator pulak.

But the challenges was macam-macam. My pant's zip broke in the middle of a busy afternoon at work. And I was exposing indecently. Mintak Ampun, MALU!! haha. The others were small matters. 2nd appointment another 2nd yes. When will the "NO" start coming? Tak kick ah gini. Haha. Bebual mane nye confident je. Dah la..Nak buat Dream Book. Belom start pon..Mati BBC kene bawak...Akhir jugak riwayat aku dalam dunia Amway....GO DIAMOND!~

Hello..just reach home from Boys Day Out. Catching up with the boys is really fun. Had dinner at seoul garden. Eat our heart's desire and play with our luck. After that the rest of the boys went shopping. They bought some clothes and shoes. Sakit hati sey tengok. Since I'm still wearing my "legendary" Converse Weapon. The one who have to work again after retirement. Pity eh? Retired still got to work.

Oh ya, I found something that is hanging on my cupboard for quite sometime now that I find it as a tool to jump back on track if i meet any challenges. It is kinda poem and I wanna share with all of you.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill

When the funds are low and the debts are high

And you want to smile but you have to sigh

When care is pressing you down abit,

Rest, if you must

But don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out,

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you can never tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems afar.

So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit

It when things go wrong that you musn't quit.

Ipod Baby here I come!!

Wakey2...Time check 0753hrs in this sunny sunday. Plans for today:
1000hrs: BBC
1400hrs: Most probably my aunt is visiting us to see nenek.
1645: Dinner with the boys.

Yesterday's memoirs are simply nothing but enriching learing experience. Went to DD's place to have BOM and demo training. Taught by the leaders of the group. Some funny moments were captured like "honeybell" with a dumbell motion, and also walking straight to the lamp post. Other then that funny moments, listening to DD's talk that can improve the business is just great. He said that we can reach Diamond in less then 2 years if we really follow the system and plan. Gerek pe..

I didn't know that doing demo is fun. Haha. And i didn't realise that my hands were shaking when pouring the LOC. Nervous ke pe. However I realise that I tend to talk in a fast manner and disorganise. So I need more practice. Until we got it at the tip of our fingertips. That is what DD told us.

Ok i wanna eat breakfast.

Politics in the office is getting worse every single day.

Telling lies to the management and when told to clarify infront of everyone, they ain't got the balls to do so. Instead they scurry off like a little mouse. Dumbweed. Whats up with people eyeing on a collegue of mine who did not do anything wrong?? When he did nothing but work?

He is so busy with his stuff that he sometimes sleeps in the office when it is too late to go home. Kesian upline aku. But the good thing is that he knows that this crap is only temporary and diamondhood is forever.

The real office is different from what I initially thought. It is full of smelly people, both in and out,that after settling down eating on their rice bowl, they out eating team mates and fellow colleague.

Yes, we may be black listed in the office but without us the office will collapse. We are like the backbones of the office. Who cleared the mess on the floor and file 40 numbers when everybody is doing only 5 numbers?? Me! Who traced the most casenotes and the most busiest man in office?? My up upline. Who find the misfiling casenotes in the office?? my upline. And who gets all the critizism and the bad name?? Us. Thank you very much.

Ok..lets not get carried away.

I went out from office at 8pm, almost 12 hours of working. Then off for dinner at west coast. Was a pleasant dinner, with din and dul. Talk about office and making fun of them. Laugh our stomach out when going to the MRT. Its like 3 people laughing hysterically. So in the end, we enjoy our companionship even it is full of s*it load in the office.

I still don't understand why are we living in such a high standard with the best of everything but yet the money in the bank account doesn't get better.

I heard in the news in the radio that the government is calling foreign investor to make a labatory to invent things that could help the aging population. Singapore's population are aging and yet they have no choice but to be employed to still earn a living. And birth rates are getting lower.

To me there is one simple reason. While prices and standard of living are going up, the people have to work extra to earn the extra income to accomodate the rising prices because their pay don't get a raise even if the standard of living increased!!.

So they have very little to save. And do you think they want to start a family with a small savings?? oh hell no..I dont think they will be married before reaching 40s. And soon the country will be flo0ded with 40 year old virgin.

And not just that, less time will be use for family. So they won't be seeing their love ones very often. And its kinda sad.

I beginning to feel that too. I wake up at 6 in the morning to get to work which takes nearly 2 hours to arrive by public transport. After work I will be meeting someone for good time sake or appointment. I will reach home at around 12 midnight. So when I go off to work, my family is sleeping. And when I reach home they are sleeping. I got no chance to talk to my family members. And it is sad. Our time in this world is limited. So I want to have more time for the ones i really love.

My vision is getting blurry every single day. Maybe because I spent too much time on the computer.

I'm not taking my vitamins and minerals. I should switch off my computer now and arrange appointments for the week.

Diamond to be signing off.

Sorry for the vulgarities from the previous post.

My company had some mistakes about the pay out date. And supposed to be today and not on the forth as they mentioned earlier. So I already checked my account and it is already in. phew. So now got to pay the bills and debts and invest some. In the end I got no more money left. sianz.

Nothing much to update. Just came back from an appointment with a good friend of mine. Turns out to be great. A potential consumer distributer. I got to follow up with her and do product demo when her mum is around.

I'm getting more excited everyday about the business. Haha. I already visualising my DRM. What to say and who to give my gratitude to. Applying the secret. Haha. So I got to work hard to acheive my goals. yeah...

Watch me fly!!

WARNING..

This entry is full of explicit content. Parents guidance is advised.

FUCK LA!! Dammit.. When will my pay be in my almost fucking dry account??!! Its the 5th of the damn new year and I'm waiting for the stupid company to pay the fucking time I work in that fucking office with fucked up people who have no sense of fucking life. That stupid damn office. Fucked up job with fucked up colleague with fucked up attitude. Furthermore, it takes a blardy fucking time and waste a lot of my hard earn money to get to that fucking office. Dammit. No point being so committed working at that fucking office.

Why did I choose this fucking job in the first place??????? But who fucking care?? My fucking attitude and morale dropped after 2 months of working. And now I am a proud member of the Burung Gagak Hitam (Black Crow). Thank you for the fucking time!! 3 more months and I'm fucking out of that fucking office!! FUCK YOU PUNATOS!!! May you rot in the office peacefully while I'm out celebrating life.

Now my Yusof Ishak is depleting and I can't save enough for my study in Poly that will commence in 4 months time. I need to get a laptop for school. Now I regret getting into that school. Regret because the school is fucking far away from the MRT. Like 10 mins walk under the sky. If it rains my laptop will be considered as a wet cigarette. Useless. All my learning tools be gone. Dammit.

Still got some bills to pay. Handphone, utilities, education, car rentals. Fuck right?!. A youngster like me got so much burdon on my shoulder to carry, while people my age are enjoying their youth. And guess what, my sister is now in JC year 2 and will probably get her seat in the university. But she is already having problems about her education fee just because her 2nd LOVELY brother took the Mendaki bursary for his Polytechnic education that will commence this year.

And not forgetting my loans with the people that loves me. I need to repay them back. By hook or by crook. Before I'm dead.

I got no other choice but to do the business seriously. For now money is never enough. The burdon is heavy. But this is all challenges that I got to face head on. And it is only temporary. Watch me fly!

One thing I learn today. A negative thing will lead to another negative thing and will continue its negativity until someone smile and give hope. I'm in LOVVEEE with positive peeps. weee...

Try or cry..A decision anyone in this world must make. A decision whether you acheive something you ever dream of or losing your entire hope.You never know that you are capable of doing until you try. If not you will end up crying in regrets.

Advised from the positive people really works. Since low self esteem is my biggest downside, I got to pull my strings together to make myself a better person. Who else but not for myself right.

So this week I'm doing an experiment. I'm going to TRY every single thing I'm afraid of doing. The good things of course. Like talking to a stranger (eventhough my parents told me not to talk to them), perform on stage, try some new products I'm selling, have a chat with never talk before old classmates or peeps.In short, whatever that comes to me, BRING IT ON!!

And without trying, you may never know what you can really acheive. I got nothing to lose. My integrity, body, virgin and soul is still intact. Nyahaha.

So what did I try something new today? hmm..I fixed the label printer and it works. Tried Ice mint and it taste yummy, but abit expensive. Following up with my cousins and it feels good.

And it all turn out great. Still haven't feel rejected yet. maybe one day. And I wonder how will I react or feel or do when getting rejected. Experience I got to learn by trying.

So for a better tomorrow, lets start now! Happiness is inevitable..wooohoooo!!

Hello =)

I'm trying to be as positive as I can be...even if my right eyes is still red and irritate. Finally went to the doctor yesterday and got some medication and MC. At least the medicine works but it is still seeing red which i hate. If tomorrow it doesn't goes down, I'm seeing the doctor again..

These few days had been feeling lethargic. Some things I need to do have not been done yet. I spent most of my time repaying my sleeping debts. haha.

Ok. I got to work my ass off..I'm not going to tolerate any nonsense from me. hopefully I don't. bahhhh...

Hello 2008!!

A new year, and my resolution for this brand new 2008 is to CHANGE.

I want to change. Change in Attitude. Change in thinking. Change my lifestyle.

Living without fears. Living my dreams.

"I man with a dream will not be denied!" excerpts from Louie Carilo.

ok some personal updates. My room is partially cleared to make way for my grandmums to move in to my room from the room next door. My parents decided to rent 2 of the rooms. Most probably I'll be sleeping in the living room. So I got to change.

Meeting at FTC yesterday was great. People are really happy to see each other and share with their experience. Great positive people and leaders. I'm so blessed. haha. And I also got to share my experienced at the Moving Up Seminar. At first I was scared and donno what to say. but when it was my turn, I just speak up my mind. And I made them laugh too..haha..cool huh..

Today I was planning to make appointments with my contact list. But my mum was pestering to clear my room. so start to clear my shelves and carpet. And my sore eyes keep on closing that eventually i slept the whole day. haiz. its ok. tomorrow i'll be bringing haqim and din to the centre since they want to know about the business I'm in. yeah.

Ok just got the pictures of MUS at fraser hill. wee...so here some of it.

One of my dream cars.

Taking a walk

The man with 17 business and growing..

The 3 black birds
The bachelors with Dato' Zul

More pictures here..

http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b137/zorro1822003/MUS%2020-23%20dec