It's the Love that i can't forget.

Hello kids!!

Haha..

people been bugging me to update. So here am i updating it.

Jamming was un with the crew. everybody is cool.

The guitar duos are happening. Gerek.

Bass no need to say la eh. As usual. STUNNING... mcm paham..

Drums need alot to learn. I mean the songs. Cos he never heard of those songs we played. But he is still cool. Kate Farhan pe..

Sat went to YJC alone to watch concert put up by the musical groups. Guitar ensemble, chinese orchestra and band. Overall its good. No doubt about that. Band wise, They have to work on their balance and tone. Its difficult anyway with the stressful study and stuff.

Wat i'm disappointed is the audience. Parents come to concert to support their child. But don they think by making a lot of comments and talk during the performance wuld make the child embarassed. Haiz. Not jus the parents. Even their friends both the same school or other JCs or Polys. They talk and talk. Laugh at the guest singer and stuff. Haiz. And not just that. Their attire is utterly rubbish. Lyk they came from playing basketball. with their tee and shorts and SLIPPERS!! you think market huh? Bodoh sey. Where is the concert manners?!

DUMB

Okay enuf said. Before concert I was with the police bros. Alzrin and Fadlie. Met them slack, talk cock. and stuff. My first time finsh burning time, after so long, with them. yeah. enjoy ah.

Sunday BAnd pract. Like normal.

Tmrw going sentosa. wohoo. taking half day leave, for the xs winds. haha. Lazy to work anyway. I'm wearing yellow ankle socks to work.HAHA..and i'm blogging at work.

I'm asking this question to myself. Why is she inspired me to write songs and all i wrote is abt her? She's all in my past anyway. Guess i'm still emotional attached to her. miss her. thats the truth. HAIZ. She's all in the past. Its like you are so close with yr mum that you can't let her go even after she is 6 feet under.

If you know what i mean.

Luckily got someone to hear my inner voice.

Sorry haven't been updating since Sunday. Wasn't busy with work but too busy if having fun after work that when i reach home I'll just go shower, eat my dinner and tuck in my lovely bed. Wake up next morning to work.

Mon was fun going out with my sweet lil step sis. Haha. Catch up alot. Follow her went window shopping for her best friend birthday. Gave her some ideas and stuff. Just as we enter this particular shop, the sales girl immediately came to us and ask, "Are you looking for couple rings?" and both of us are like What??!!. Kinda lame la actually. I don't wear rings la. The only ring i'm gg to wear is my wedding ring. And that will be in 10 years time??. I want to achieve something before settling down. And I'm still young!!

I don't even think of relationship now. Maybe get to know some girls and mingle around but not ready for relationship. And if I do it may not be a serious one. Unless proven otherwise.

All thankz to past experience. Thank you ah eh.

Lets just forget about all those stuff.

I'm happier now. Music keeps me alive. The radio in my office is my buddy. haha. But kinda dislike those song they are playing now in the radio. To be true I dislike click five. their songs are relatively easy to play. Pop rock mah. HAha. I like the song unfaithful by raihanna. maybe its somehow had an impact on me. After went thru months of hell.

Hmm. If I only i got a chance to record my songs and post it here. I bet you guys will love it. okay i might sound confident. HAha.

I and taufiq getting ready to jam again. Taufiq sugget to include his cuzzin for guitar and I might include Farhan the jackass Sairi aka Mat Kerbau on drums. So we got to go thru some jamming session and get our standard like other yishun bands before joining gigs.

Hmm i donno wat else to blog.

Well till then!

Hello everyone. Hows life? Fun? Stress? Exams coming? Whatever you do please reflect your life and at the same time enjoy it. Really! I'm really enjoying my life. I've learn to appreciate the rainy days of course.

On friday my boss on leave. So i came to office abit late den usual. haha. Chill for awhile than start doing my job settling some stuff. Was doing till lunch time when me and my friends went to Jurong point to eat. While walking,caught an eye candy. at pizza hut. She was working. Didn't went up to her to say hi but she's really cute. Hope to see her again!

Den go back to work. Standard a little too late. Haha. Spend the whole afternoon doing my job again till the end of the day. Was suppose to meet Farhan and gang to accompany me to take my final theory test. But they bubble. They change plan and I went there alone. Was nervous for the test. I really analyse each questions carefully before going to the next questions. Do it well and finish it up. And I PASS!!! Was over the moon man. Haha. And I went back home alone. listening to my 7 songs in my PSP. haha.

SAT: Went for soccer training at admiralty. So meet the rest of the jackass and go to the field. Was super late. They start at 830. We reach there at 915. haha. It was fun. my team lost 5 - 2 though. With some new people joining us. I scored from long range shot. haha. Din wasn't that happy cos he said i was stingy and didn't pass the ball for a better opportunity. But no one was asking the ball. so i took a glance up,saw the opening and shoot. tried may times but only one goal. haha. Agreed hith Din that my accuracy is bad. Didn't know how come i still got marksman for shooting at PA. haha.

After soccer went home. chill for a couple of hours before going to Farhan's Place. I dressed up kinda smartly cos going for the TPJC concert after that. So when i'm about to leave my house, my mum was asking me a few questions. It goes like this
Mum: So you going out with your girl huh?
HAfiz: No way Mum!!
Mum: So are you still with Jalilah?
HAfiz: Huh? No la.
Mum: Why?
HAfiz: She want its off.
Mum: ooh..
HAfiz: Anyway there is still more girls out there.
Mum: Ya, still more (sarcasticly)
HAfiz: haha. K mum I'm leaving now. BYE!!

So I left the house. Took the bus to Farhan's place. Go there some guitar session with Din. Taught him a few songs. He kinda blur. but still manage to catch it. All you need is time and patience. Den Farhan's parents invite me to go to East Coast. haha. long time since I've been there. Its a cool place to chill. Enjoying the sand,wind,sun and sea. Awesome. Thanks to makcik and pakcik for inviting me. hehe. Was enjoying it till time flies that I have to go to victoria concert hall for the concert.

the concert was fun and entertaining. Went around clarke Quay to get a gift for Kevin. So me,mark,sam and ray was hunting down till we went to fullerton hotel and went to their gift shop. Get the gift and walk to the concert hall. by the time we were there, the door already close. so have to wait for the first song to finish before entering. ya. Was great la. Overall good performance. Well done.

After concert we went around town to hunt for food. Can't bear to leave our stomach empty. and of course to catch up with the rest. We had a good laugh.We walk around town in circles and till we reach Chinatown Point and eat McDonalds. Okay la since I'm still using the student meal. hehe. Cacth up alot of stuff and jokes. haha. It was fun. Its been a year and a half we met. haha.

Den went home. Met Din Haqim and Yaya at the bus interchange. Took the same bus with Din.

Ya thats all folks!

Hope yr day was great. Remember to enjoy every single moment of it!!

hey peeps....

I feel like i need a make over on myself. Change my image. Now I wanna be like the slacker cum chiller. Start to wear earthy colour like brown and green. Let my hair down, Instead of spiking it up or design it in a punkish style. I wanna be the back beat. Be the bass in music. Important yet invincible. if you noe what i mean.

Now I'm listening to old school rock i guess. Those songs with guitars that is full of feelings. My favourite rite now is Dream on by Led Zeplin. Aerosmith did a cover on that song too. So I'm going to change the song on this blog to Dream On by Aerosmith.

Hmm

Today kinda relax I would say. Something funny yet traumatise happen. Haha. Just imagine a lady come up to you with a recall order to serve for the reservist came. Not trying to be naive we all thought that she came in behalf of her husband or employee. Den when she was refered to the officer in charge, She told that she don't mind serving reservist but refuse to cut hair.

We all like WHAT???!!!!

So we call she/he It. brr..bring shivers to my spine. YUCKS. EeEEeWWWW

Haha. Boss think of putting It beside me if It was being recalled. NO WAY MAN!!! No offence but sorry. Who knows It might psycho me to join It. Well sorry to say but I'm a straight guy. Prefer a real lady rather than wannabe lady.

OKOK thats enuf. Who noes It might be reading this.

I'm in deep shit. I lost one of the reservist important card. OH NO!! I might be charge. Shit. Where did i put it?? Damn!!

Stress

haha

okay

see ya nxt time.

I love pure girls!!! Wanna go on a date?..Wakakaka

Ouch!!. Something hit on my head. And it makes me wake up my bloody idea (words from tracom) Seriously it makes me realise what i really want and what I really admire. Its wake up call.

I always want to help others. Not financially but in other ways. I want to help save peoples' life. I wanna be in the medical line. That is what I always wanted.

Still remember when in camp and have to do CPR test on a dummy. The test is really difficult. But I remember my OC said "always treat a victim as if they are your own family members". So i did. Pass the test too. Now I'm a qualified first aider. My first step to the medical line.

This medical line is what I always wanted since I'm a kid. Not specifically as a doctor, but a scientist or surgeon. I want to save people's live. I will stick to that till have it secure in my hands.

Now I want to donate blood. Still waiting for my nurse friend to tell me about it. YATY biler la tu donation drive? If not I'll just go to the center on my own..

Well I guess music and performing arts is not my line. I did enjoy those time and like I said before, I'll still be in the music line. The music is still in my blood. Don't want to put it to waste. I will still write songs for you guys out there. haha. Seriously, I'll write it for you. Cos you're my biggest FAN!! (day dreaming again).

Anyone can recommend me ways to record songs and convert to MP3 format? Or recommend a website that could upload songs? I want to share my music to you all. Yeah to you!!

Today is like pain day i would say.

I got a blister on my foot since few weeks back. And guess what happen. The whole skin of that area tore apart while i was playing soccer this morning. Kiwak sakit siol. so i got to wear my shoes. When in contact with water it really hurts alot. so now i got to walk with my right foot tilted abit. If not the water from the would would flow out and cause more pain.

Soccer was fun. Play street soccer at the basketball court. surely a fast paced yet entertaining game. we played beautiful football and dribblers are treat like a threat to the opposition team. some confident to score but the ball end up hitting the post and bounce out. haha. alot of funny stuff happen. too may to describe. They say i play like peter crouch. cos i'm tall like him. and i run like him too. Is it? i donno. haha.

My hands got this numb sensation. its like as if the blood circulation is not that good. Felt cold and sometimes muscle tense. Hmm what have been happening to me man. Am i getting any disease?

Just finish watching the patriot. The show is kinda bloody and gruesome. Now i know how the war is like 300 years ago. Mel gibson as the dad of the family who try not to go on war decided to join the war after the enemy's colonel kill his son at point blank for fighting to relese his elder brother from getting hang. sad yet gruesome. where blood just spill everywhere and axe stuck on the head. wow.

Writting another song today. This time its punk rock. wohoo. Same chords as dammit but the intro part is different.haha. Will post the lyrics once it is done. hehe

Got to study for my final theory test. its this friday at 8 pm at SSDC. next practical is on thursday.Well can't wait to drive some more. Woohooo..

I'm hungry!!!

Today is Vesak Day so its Public Holiday!!

Today woke up kinda late. at 10 am.. So i jus wash up and stuff. Ate breakfast. Den chill before going to farhan's place. Lepak for a while den went to Masjid for the Friday Prayers. Yeah. hang out with some old school mate and buddies, long time didn't meet them. After the Prayers met Khai. get the tix for his school concert. THe concept is like a variety of performing arts. dance and music. So gonna check it out.

Anyway got another band concert coming up next week. TJC band. Yeah, Gonna crash the concert and see wat the band is capable of. Actually I lost touch of the band world since CNL stop practicing for like 3 months?! Yeah. Long tome didn't touch Euphy. And today I finally finish paying the euphonium. Wohhoo. So next month its time for retail therapy. Haha.

Okay back to my day, After the prayers and stuff we're suppose to play some street soccer. However the day is kinda bad so we go back to Farhan's place to lepak. Then Sharom came, Play his laptop. haah. Play game. Was fun and as usual I was at the bottom. Haha. Newbie la.

After that we went down to SAFRA to play some pool. Was great. Took alot of pix from sharom's digicam. haha. From the pool game all the to Northpoint. Took really funny pix. Hopefully I could post it up soon.

Den meet someone before going home.

Can't wait for tomorrow. Got soccer in the morning. yeah. and world cup fever is getting hotter.

wohooOoooooOOooOOOo000

well well..I'm back!!

This week another holiday week.haha. Wohooo..Tmrw Holiday!!

Well Yesterday was so GREAT! I guess..

Erm..let me recall wat happen..

Watch soccer. S League Selection VS Selangor Selections. Great match. S League selections was superb. The got a lot of chances. The selangor team not bad at all. But lack of opportunities. I got Free tix so I went there with office boys. We missed the veteran match but jus in team for the selection match. And of course the place is just full of hot cheerleaders. Haha. so when the match was slow our eyes look at something else. Paham2 aje la eh.

Okay den When home. Ate before snuggle up to bed. Chat with her on the phone. We talk alot. In fact i'm the one so kecoh. haha. Long time didn't talk to her. Felt that she kinda change. She's now the passive attitude girl. Not the sizziling active one. haha. Somehow or rather the memory lane just took the spot. and ya all those sweet memories. Tears begin to flow. I sense regretion, donno whether my intuition is right. So dowan to comment on that.

Today in office kinda quiet since most of them is taking leave. Long holiday la kire kan. Aku jugak kat office buat keje. Its so stupid to do things that the responsible of the regulars who blunders. Re do and shit.

After work I went for my first driving practical. Wohoo. It was fun. Whoever I feel that the instructor is those kind who don't have any patients at all. Got one time when he kinda piss off with me cos i didn't depress the clutch or something. Went thru the circuit, den after like get the hang of driving and turning and U-turn at the circuit, he told me to drive to the main road. Kiwax. I was so afraid I might just hit someone. But it is fun. Haha. touring the ulu side of marsiling and woodlands and stop at the pick up point. Confidence beb. luckily no accident. Phew...so my next lesson will be next week. My Final theory on Fri. Haven't study. AWW!!

Anyway

HAPPY WEEKENDS!!!!

I donno la..what i'm going to do with my future..Well i'm living on my Motto. NO past will destroy my future. History will always be history, so I dowan my history to be a factor to destroy my future. Yeah I do have a black History. I'm not living in a family where everything is cool and fine.

Its not a fine family when you always thinking about how to pay the bills for the next couple of months. When money is the biggest challenge. When the family is still young and education is important for them. The eldest 2 in the family is serving the Nation. Low income and just enuf for our self expense. so we can't even give the money to our family.

tot of signing on. Sacrifice my hope just to support my family, give them wat they deserve to get. I'm not planning to settle down too. Getting married and stuff..i'll talk abt that say 5 years frm now.

I wanna see my parents happy. I want them to be proud of their childrens' acheivement. I want to send them to holiday, where they don't worry about their children at home. My mum always wanted to go on a cruise. I want to see my sis gettin the degree in a few years time. I want to see my lil baby bro one day be useful to the society..have a proper education. and not just drift away to the negative side of life. My elder bro no need to say la..he is old enuf to think..

So wat should i do?? Study? work? Study full time work part-time?? work full time study part time??

Should I just sign on??

Will my future be affected?? Will my dream be destroyed?

I donno...

need ya help.........

so pls call me ya......

Kinda have no life now..Imagine working 14 days non stop. Apart from that over time. You come at 8 in the morning and you leave your office at 1 am in the wee hours. I'm not even a regular..have to do the shitty jobs. And when the big fuckers cock things up we the one to be blamed...idiotic...call the organisation world class....like real. Beginning to hate office work. I want to get out from here.

So sorry to you gang cos I've been MIAing. Beginning to miss my home. My mum and my little bro...awww...

if you guys are free please call me. I'm bored. As long as you don't call me during the busy hours of work. but I'll still will have time for you guys. haha..

I wanna take a break. This upcoming event is draining me and i'm not even qualified to vote.

Who wanna watch movie with me? M:I 3 or da vinci code..or scary movie 4...anyone...i'll pay for the tix that if you're a girl....if you a guy i'll....erm...hmm...buy candy??

Kwang kwang kwang.................................

I told you guys that I went to MOS to chill right..I also did some bad stuff which is between me and God ryt. Well If I disappoint you in any ways well i'm sorry.. But don't think i do such things out of misery and depression. If I was depress and misery bcos of my changed life and my family problem I would be dead by now..I could just end my life and there goes a sincere soul down to hell. I'm serious. I don't have to start smoking and drinking to handle my misery life.

Like one of my fren. He got the same prob as me and he sms he saying he want to die. Dying isn't the way to clear up yr mess. So Bro wake up that fcuking idea of yours. You don't deserve to die now and you certainly don't deserve to burn in hell. C'mon think of yr family and love ones. I know you well enough. Since the day we met, we suffer together lepak together at the lepak corner at the back of our barrack and shout P.O.P.OHH. So Be strong ya. Anything you can find me. you got my number right. We can meet at town again lepak kat starbucks. disturb some chickies. You told me before that you still have your charm right. So make it happen.

This reminds me oh how important friends is in times of growing up. I admit I was under depression also. On top of my family problems and stuff. Thnkz to my friends who brought me to a place where friends are the most valuble things on earth. The things we did that doesn't involve girls. like play DOTA and soccer. Do some jackass stuff. Play guitar hang around the Esplanade.

Thaknz to growing up friends like FARHAN SAIRI and AIZUDIN and NUR HAQIM.
the jack ass crew..

Thnkz to YAIETY too who had been diligently listen to my problems and and give me the motivation to live on.

Thnkz to MSN PALS like SISTA SYIQIN and more. Thnks for making me get my irritating self back. WAKAKAKA..

SO the moral of the story is DEPRESSION KILLS.
Seek to God for help and God will send his angels to guide you along. As always God is the most understanding in the universe.