I donno la..what i'm going to do with my future..Well i'm living on my Motto. NO past will destroy my future. History will always be history, so I dowan my history to be a factor to destroy my future. Yeah I do have a black History. I'm not living in a family where everything is cool and fine.
Its not a fine family when you always thinking about how to pay the bills for the next couple of months. When money is the biggest challenge. When the family is still young and education is important for them. The eldest 2 in the family is serving the Nation. Low income and just enuf for our self expense. so we can't even give the money to our family.
tot of signing on. Sacrifice my hope just to support my family, give them wat they deserve to get. I'm not planning to settle down too. Getting married and stuff..i'll talk abt that say 5 years frm now.
I wanna see my parents happy. I want them to be proud of their childrens' acheivement. I want to send them to holiday, where they don't worry about their children at home. My mum always wanted to go on a cruise. I want to see my sis gettin the degree in a few years time. I want to see my lil baby bro one day be useful to the society..have a proper education. and not just drift away to the negative side of life. My elder bro no need to say la..he is old enuf to think..
So wat should i do?? Study? work? Study full time work part-time?? work full time study part time??
Should I just sign on??
Will my future be affected?? Will my dream be destroyed?
I donno...
need ya help.........
so pls call me ya......